Breaking the habite

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I?m picking me apart again
You all assume
I?m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)

I don?t want to be the one
The battles always choose
?Cause inside I realize
That I?m the one confused

I don?t know what?s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don?t know why I instigate
And say what I don?t mean
I don?t know how I got this way
I know it?s not alright
So I?m
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I?ll paint it on the walls
?Cause I?m the one at fault
I?ll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don?t know what?s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don?t know how I got this
I?ll never be alright
So I?m
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight